Friday, August 29, 2014

{over sharer}

I Haven't been on here in a while, & honestly, it feels so foreign to be writing up a blog post right now. But it's a short one, so i think i can manage ;) 
A friend shared an article on Facebook & i just had to reshare it 
It's perfect & simple. 

These past 9 months have been trying to say the least & i promise to do an update post very soon, i just can't find the time or the right words to talk about the last few months. {I know i know i sound like a broken record.. but really it will come} 
If you're my family, friend or Facebook/instagram friend you know what has gone on, & you also know that i am an over sharer of pictures of my kids & everything mama related.

Recently, someone made a comment about how i post too much about my kids or about being a mom. It's happened before & i just ignored it, but this time it really bothered me. It bothered me because, as i state below, what else am i supposed to post about?  So when i reposted this article on my Facebook, i took the opportunity to explain why i "Over share" about the joys & trials of motherhood & a lot of my mama friends chimed in saying their lives are so so similar! So i thought i would share it with you all & hopefully encourage another mama or two out there :)
By the way, i'm not angry! So please don't think that or read this post in an angry tone. That's not my point AT ALL. It's playful & honest, that's all

Here's the link to the article by the way
& here's a link to her most recent post that just made me laugh
I wish i was that funny

This is what i wrote: 
"ok before you roll your eyes & say "there goes ashley posting about motherhood again.." I know I post a lot of mama stuff but hear me out, ....this is my life. I read everyone's posts about family, friends, parties, vacations, school, work etc & I smile & enjoy reading about your life. Really I do! If you don't enjoy reading about mine, frankly, i don't care. I have nothing else to talk about but my kids & my daily laughs & struggles. (Or my struggles that I pretend to laugh at) I post lots of pictures of my kids. I know. But this is my life, in all it's glory. My life is interesting, fun & beautiful, but in a different way. Instead of everything everyone else does, I breastfeed a 20 pound squirmy monster that has 2 new teeth (ya, ouch!) 6+ times a day while somehow trying to keep a toddler content. I am then up 4 or more times a night feeding & rocking said monster boy back to sleep.. I clean up poop & pee & vomit & I sweep random food/items off the floor atleast 10 times every day because kids are messy, in case you didn't know. I talk to a 2 year old and an infant all day about a wide range of topics.. Nothing I find particularly interesting, but I'm teaching them about life. I potty train, do homeschool activities, play games, make cookies, fight to get them both down for atleast one nap at the same time, snuggle them, make breakfast lunch & dinner. I clean up the same messes multiple times a day because somehow they manage to completely demolish the living room while I'm cleaning the dining room & vice versa. I clean ALL DAY & it's as if it never happened. I try to make them happy so I can hear their sweet laughs, I make silly faces & dance around & throw them in the air, & crawl around on the floor pretending to be a dinosaur or a horse, all while trying to do the dishes & laundry & vacuum. I do all of this every day, while i stay locked inside my house for fear of everyone seeing my unlost baby weight, uncombed hair, 2 day old makeup, & giant bags under my eyes from 3 years of 2-3 hours of sleep a night, at most. (2 bad sleepers will do that to you) I struggle daily to just keep myself together, And that's ok. Being a mama is hard!! & i only have 2 of these monsters! And also being a wife, daughter, sister, cousin, niece, grand daughter fried etc is hard. Life is crazy, it's hard to find that balance. But I love every minute & every person in my life. My point in posting all this mama stuff I post is not to bug anyone, it's to remind the mamas or soon to be mamas that are in the same situation as I am that it's ok if you haven't showered in 5 days, & your laundry is piled up. We're all here for each other, we know the truth, & we will get through this lol if anything, I hope my posts give the seasoned mamas a good laugh as they reminisce"

We are moms. 
This our life
We post about our kids because 
1) We're proud of them
2) They are all that we think about day & night
3) Everything we do is FOR THEM, wether we stay home or work out of the home,
 it's all for them
4) We love them so much it hurts! 
5) they are our new (&only) hobby

by the way, if you were to ask me a few years ago what my hobbies were, it would be an impressive list of fun, creative, & active things.
Now? 
My hobbies include
* Singing every word to every song on the frozen soundtrack multiple times a day
*Watching peppa pig while the kids nap because i am too tired to realize the kids are in bed & i can now watch whatever i want
* Talking in crazy voices and pretending to be a monster while chasing my kids around the house
* Trying on my pre pregnancy clothes & crying because i can't get them past my thighs 
* Putting carrots under my top lip & pretending to be a walrus because it makes G laugh hysterically  EVERY. TIME. 
*Sitting in the dark downstairs by myself speed watching Greys anatomy while everyone is sleeping so i can have some alone time & not have to think
* Pretending to have clean hair when really i haven't washed it in a week & have just dry shampood the crap out of it 
*Re washing the same load of laundry 4 times because i keep forgetting it's in the washer 
*and many other super embarrassing things that i'll save for another post








See? My kids are alive & well & so are we :) 
They grow so fast
Like i said, an update post is to come soon
Just wanted everyone to know we didn't disappear into the abyss 

Motherhood, we just take it one day at a time & hope to God we aren't screwing them up
I am an over sharer 
I will always be honest about the struggles & joys of motherhood
& that's ok
I share because I want other moms to know that they are not alone
The struggle is real! 
The joy is real too 
& so are the smiles & kisses & hugs

Saturday, March 15, 2014

{diy disposable baby wipes}

Today I am going to give you my recipe for homemade wipes
But before i begin, i wanted to say thank you to everyone who wrote me emails & left comments regarding my last post. I was blown away by the response i got! I am so happy that i was able to encourage some mamas out there with my story. Thank you all so much for your encouragement as well!! 
Things are slowly getting better here, long story short, our boy has some tummy issues. We started taking him to my naturopathic doctor, & we are beginning to understand whats been going on. Hoping to get our little guy fixed up soon! & hoping he starts sleeping longer than 30min- 1 hour at a time.. Will share more as i know more

But anyways, on to the post
We are FINALLY breaking out our cloth diapers for Liam,  ready to start saving money again! & we're finally caught up on regular laundry...after 4 months haha
We saved so much money cloth diapering our daughter, & now, our son is using her diapers. Just goes to show they are worth the initial investment!
Both of our kids have super sensitive skin. Especially on their little bottoms ;) 
So with our daughter. i used cloth wipes and a hypoallergenic bottom spray.
for our son, i wanted to try something else
so i made these! & i love them! 
after ONE day of using them, his little bum rash cleared up & we've been using them ever since
I am most definitely a believer
We all know the health & moisturizing benefits of coconut oil
& if you use a good baby wash or Dr. Bronners, you can't lose!
Try them out for yourself! 
What you need:
A roll of paper towels 
Your favorite ph balanced baby wash or Dr. Bronners soap 
virgin unrefined coconut oil
water
a container with a lid for the wipes
a big knife
Begin by cutting your paper towel roll in half
Use a cutting board!  I didn't cut on my table, this pic was a fake ;)
Choose the half you want to use & remove the cardboard center
Put the other half somewhere until you're ready to make your next batch
stuff your half roll into chosen container 
Mix 1 Tablespoon coconut oil & 1 Tablespoon baby wash with 1 1/2 cups hot water 
The hot water will help the coconut oil melt
We love Honest co baby wash! It smells so yummy! Plus i trust all the ingredients 
Pour your mixture over the paper towel roll in the container
To use:
Pull from the center of the roll , tear at perforation, replace lid
easy peasy!
You will get a good sized wipe, made with ingredients you trust!
{Here's a summarization in one picture to pin to pinterest or to save you your computer :) }

Happy saturday :)


Friday, December 20, 2013

{lately}


This month has been crazy
Adjusting to life as a family of four is a lot harder than i thought it would be! 
Don't get me wrong, it is absolutely amazing & we love our sweet little guy, but.. it's hard having 2 kids!
We have one going through the beginnings of the terrible twos {I now know why they call it that}, & another who nurses every hour, day & night, & likes to be held & cuddled 24/7..
Most days, Giuliana & I don't even change out of our jammies & our meals consist of oatmeal, cereal, smoothies, or frozen chicken nuggets.. She doesn't seem to mind  :) 
Every day is getting a tiny bit easier though, so i definitely see a light at the end of the tunnel.

Our sweet girl has grown up over night! Its crazy, since we brought Liam home, she seems so big! She's not a baby anymore... it makes me kind of sad. But it is so fun watching her show off the new things she's learned {Counting, singing, dancing} She is so outgoing and fun! & she is so sweet with her little brother. We have had no issues with jealousy.. yet. haha

Liam is growing up fast too! 
When he was born he was 9lbs. He is now almost 11 lbs!! He such a little chunkster ;)
He has begun to coo & give a hint of a smile.  
He's only 4 1/2 weeks old, but it feels like he's always been here.
This month has flown by
He's a sweet boy

I've been MIA with the blog because, well, its hard to keep up with a blog when you can hardly keep up with the laundry 
Soon enough, it will get easier I'm sure. I'm enjoying every hectic minute, because i know that time flies by way too fast. 
I love my sweet babies

Happy friday ;) 

Monday, November 25, 2013

{1 week}

This little man is one week old today :)

Its been quite a week! 
Last monday, we were driving to the hospital to have this little guy. 
A few people have emailed me & commented saying congratulations, Thank you guys! 
A few mama's have asked if i was able to have the vbac i was preparing for. 
Sadly, the answer is no.
Near the end of my pregnancy we had some complications & i ended up having to schedule a repeat cesarean for safety reasons. I was heartbroken at first. I felt robbed of an experience for the second time & like my body just kept failing at doing something it should be able to do. 
 It took me a couple weeks to come to terms with it. 

I prayed a lot about it & realized it was out of my control & i wasn't going to let this small thing ruin our happiness & joy. I'm glad i did too. 

Last monday was a great day.
 We woke up, played with our daughter, dropped her off at my in laws, then had some time just for my husband & I. We drove to the hospital together & the peace & calm we felt this time was amazing.
We knew what to expect this time. No surprises.

The staff that was on that day was so wonderful too. They made us feel so comfortable. We all laughed and talked like old friends. 
I was able to talk to them about my experience last time & how horrible & scary it was 
{I had a bad reaction to the anesthesia & was given waaay too many pain meds, to name a few things}
This time, I was able to sit & talk with the anesthesiologist about different options for medicine for the surgery, & he was so kind & helpful & understanding. 

We went back in the OR & i was surprisingly calm. Last time i hyperventilated & panicked for so long, my surgery ended up being a lot later than it had been scheduled for. 
This time though, I was at peace. 
I knew i was bringing my sweet boy into this world in a matter of minutes & i was ready to meet him. 

They gave me the spinal, i layed down, they prepped their stations & talked to me, asking me about giuliana & my husband, & plans for our new little babe. There was christmas music playing in the background, {not kidding!}, & that added to the joyful mood in the room. 

Once i was all prepped, they let my husband in the room and he sat by my side, rubbing my hair. 
Since it was our second cesarean, they allowed William to take video. 
William was able to videotape our son being born, pulled from my tummy, taking his first breaths. 

I heard his sweet cries & i myself began to cry. 
It was over. 
it was done. 
HE WAS HERE
finally. 
I could hear the nurses "Look at the little dimple in his chin!" "Look at all that dark hair!"

The nurse brought him directly to my face, still connected, still covered in goop.
He was so beautiful
& he did have the cutest dimple in his chin, just like his daddy
I kissed his sweet little face & cried the happiest tears. 
Being able to see him that soon was something i had not expected. {Last time i didn't see giuliana until she was already cleaned up.}

William cut the cord & followed the nurse to recovery while i was sewn back up. 
The nurses all clapped & talked about how beautiful our sweet liam was. 
I was still calm, but filled with so much joy. 

In recovery, i held him right away. 
The anesthesia they used this time was so different. I was actually aware enough to know exactly what was going on around me. I held him skin to skin and talked with my sweet husband.
It was such a great experience

The whole time we were at the hospital, i only took Motrin. I refused all the strong pain meds they had given me last time. & i am so glad i did. 
I was fully functional the entire time we were at the hospital. Breastfeeding was so much easier this time because i wasn't an emotional wreck. My Milk came in on the second day {Last time it was day 4}
He's such a good little nurser. 
We also came home a lot sooner than last time. We only stayed 2 nights, last time it was 4. 

All in all, a much better experience than last time. 
Even though it was not the birth i had planned, it was so beautiful in it's own way, & i am very blessed to have 2 beautiful, healthy children. 

Being home with our little guy has been so fun. 
Our daughter Loves him so much. 
Every morning she runs into our room to say good morning to him. 
Well she actually says "Hey bud, goodmorning, time to wake up!"
Its seriously so cute
It's only been a week but it feels like he's always been here
I love my family

Happy monday :)


Friday, November 22, 2013

{Liam}

Meet Liam Joseph Johnston
Born at 12:49pm 
Monday, November 18th
8lbs 15.9 oz

He is perfect!
 We are so in love with him
Giuliana cant get enough of him
She's been such a big helper 
So happy to finally hold our sweet boy in our arms
We're in heaven

happy friday