{Daddy date & update on G}

Today William decided that i needed a small break from G. We have been inseperable since the moment she was born! They decided to have a daddy daughter date & go look for birthday presents for me. 

I will be 21 tomorrow. Its so crazy to think.

As much as i agreed with William that i needed a small break, for some reason, it was really hard to see them go! I literally stood in the door way to our garage & cried hysterically while i watched him load her into the car! The whole time, william was laughing at me, feeling sorry for me. He kept saying "Honey. dont cry.." He will never understand :)

Although G is no longer in my belly, i still feel as though she is part of me.. so seeing her leave without me was really hard. I seriously cried for about 20 minutes after they left! & now im sitting here typing this, missing them.. wanting to cry again! ah! Hormones. 

You have to admit though, she looks super cute in her seat, how could you not miss that face? Daddy has a cute little date :) 

I swear this little peanut gets cuter & cuter everyday. 

& speaking of our little peanut, I kind of have an update on everything that has been going on. On friday night her Dr. called us back. He confirmed that her Xrays indeed showed signs of sagittal cranial stenosis. We have been in contact with Phoenix childrens hospital & will be meeting with a Neurosurgeon on Thursday to discuss the severity of the issue & our options. thats all we know until then.

Please continue to keep us all in your prayers as this is such a scary time. Our hearts break for our little girl. I am thankful though that we live so near such a wonderful hospital with some of the best Drs in the country. That brings a little bit of comfort, but still, it is scary to think of what our little one may have to go through. 

I know everything will be ok though. We have lots of family members & friends all over the place praying for the safety of our little girl. Everything happens for a reason too. Good will come from this experience :) 

Well, i'm going to finish up this post & take a little nap before my Husby & little peanut get home.

Happy Tuesday everyone :) 

{Craniosynostosis}}

Sorry friends, we have been kind of MIA lately. all for good reason though.

We're getting used to the thought of being parents! & trying to figure out G's feeding schedule. 

Aye.. nursing is like a full time job i tell ya! But im loving every minute of it :)

Today, G is 18 days old. Time goes by so fast! I feel like we cam home from the hospital just yesterday! 

She is such a good little baby and we are thoroughly enjoying her.

{Helping mom fold laundry. I love my little lovebug}

On top of just figuring out how to do this whole thing the right way, we have had a couple of things weighing heavy on our hearts.

We found out last week that G needs to have an ultrasound taken of her hips. Since she was breech, she is at high risk for hip dysplasia. If you don't know what that is, basically it means that there is a chance that her hip sockets didn't form correctly because of how she was positioned in the womb. When they pulled G out of my tummy during the Cesarean section, she was in pike postition! a perfect angle. Her legs are still pretty darn straight, rather then curled up like most babies, making it almost impossible to keep her laying on her back to sleep. also, because of how her legs are, we have been unable to use our cloth diapers. They are all too clunky & her legs are so close together. plus she is so tiny that even the newborn disposables are big on her.
 They are taking the ultrasound to make sure G will develop properly in a couple of weeks. 

a few days ago, we went to the pediatrician for her 2 week checkup. He brought another thing to our attention. 

G's head is forming in an abnormal way. This is something i have noticed the past week as i am feeding her & rubbing her sweet little head. The back of her head is kind of bulgy and the front of her head feels like the cranium plates on the sides are slightly wrapped around the front plate of her head, almost like her front plate is falling in.  He told us that there is a chance she may have Craniosynostosis, otherwise known as Cranial Stenosis. What this basically means is that the sutures in the cranium have fused, leaving no room for brain growth. We took her to get an Xray of her cranium yesterday to try & rule out this possible diagnosis. Were hoping to hear back very soon.

As you could imagine, these past 2 weeks have been very scary for us. As parents, it is so hard to hear that anything, even something small, may be wrong with your little one. 

All of the things that we are checking for have a solution, but even the solutions seem quite scary..
 We have cried & prayed a lot this week, that God will protect our sweet little girl & that all of these tests will show that there is improvement in her hips & that her head is forming ok. 

please keep us in your thoughts this week as we try to figure all of this out. We know it is all in Gods hands & whatever is meant to happen will happen. 

I just wish my heart could be calm right now.. its so hard not to worry.

{before baby}

Just 3 weeks before our little girl was born, My dear friend Andrea {With Lime flower studio}did a photoshoot with us. I LOVE LOVE LOVE the pictures & i am so excited to have such sweet memories to share with our little sweetie. Im excited to pull these pictures out one day & say "There you are in mamas belly! & look how much your daddy loved you, even before he met you!"  

Its already weird looking back at these photos of my pregnant belly.  

It brings back memories of heartburn, sleepless nights, sleeping sitting up, waddling, swelling.. all that fun stuff. But it was all so worth it! 

{My grandmother Joy made this blanket for me when i was a baby. Now i wrap our little girl in it 21 years later}

{Christmas as 3}

This year was our first Christmas as 3

& it was a busy one

We opened our presents at home, then went to spend time with family later that morning. 

Its so crazy to think that we had Giuliana a week ago. I already feel almost fully recovered from the C-section, its amazing! I have been able to be a lot more active than i thought i would be & almost all of my swelling has gone. I feel very blessed. 

We are loving being parents.  It just feels right & she is such a good baby! 

I got willy an Ipad2. He was pretty excited about it :) 

Yes, i LOVE Harry Potter, dont judge!

Irwin enjoyed all the excitement. He tried to eat all of the wrapping paper as we unwrapped our presents 

This is my favorite Christmas gift :)

She slept through our little family christmas. its ok though :)

She did decide to wake up a little later& hang out with her daddy :) I love her little face & those big eyes! She looks more & more like her daddy everyday! I love it! 

Merry Christmas Everyone! Hope you had a wonderful weekend! 

Love,

William, Ashley & Giuliana 

{Giuliana's Journey}

{The night before she was born}

{The day she was born}

{With daddy}

{With Mommy}

{We're Home!!}